Oh well. It's surprising, isn't it? I have never hinted a word about it on this blog before. And i am having a hard time digesting this too.
I actually don't remember labeling myself as single before in my lifetime.
Fast forward to a month ago, i was so affected by all these conflicts inside my head that i became very uncomfortable around him. He realized. We had a talk and i spilled my thoughts.
Pretty late that night, he came over with a chocolate cabbury my fav. And that was it, that was the moment of awakening. It was like a big tight slap on my face. I told myself he's too nice a guy for me to keep waiting in despair and for me to fool his feeling while i cannot figure what i want for myself and out of this relationship.
The following day i might tell u i am not ready for a life long relationship. And life goes on without any final answer from me. So let's just move on and hope for the better, especially for this boy. Haishhhh...
End of story. This is definitely (in a bad way) the most thrilling emotional roller coaster of our live thus far. No wonder he hates roller coaster.
** it happened a few month after we got engaged, coz of that i leave and try to forgot this memory until now im here and move on with my blog**
P/s : to my sis MELL AZHAR read this and jgn nak touching sangat erk ! Haha bole pulak .. Hee smile okies :)
I actually don't remember labeling myself as single before in my lifetime.
Pretty late that night, he came over with a chocolate cabbury my fav. And that was it, that was the moment of awakening. It was like a big tight slap on my face. I told myself he's too nice a guy for me to keep waiting in despair and for me to fool his feeling while i cannot figure what i want for myself and out of this relationship.
The following day i might tell u i am not ready for a life long relationship. And life goes on without any final answer from me. So let's just move on and hope for the better, especially for this boy. Haishhhh...
End of story. This is definitely (in a bad way) the most thrilling emotional roller coaster of our live thus far. No wonder he hates roller coaster.
** it happened a few month after we got engaged, coz of that i leave and try to forgot this memory until now im here and move on with my blog**
P/s : to my sis MELL AZHAR read this and jgn nak touching sangat erk ! Haha bole pulak .. Hee smile okies :)
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